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Sunday, 31 March 1861

Cold, & dark, & rainy. Slept ill. ―

Took a draught ― & am somewhat relieved, tho’ feeling ill. Letter from Ellen, who is unwell, & enclosing one from poor Mary to dear Ann.

O dear me. I do not expect or wish the rest of life to be brighter, but I see it will be difficult to bear. Wrote to Ellen & to C.F.

Francillon is a good kind man, but bores me: yet I must go back again, & try to be as cheerful as I can. ―

After lunch, it became fine, & though the trial was azardous, vû that I had taken medicine, I joined Mrs. F. Edith, Robt. & H.J. in a pleasant walk. The country is beautifully varied here. ― Home by 4. ― My “dentro” ((Inside.)) bother me sadly. ―

Before 5 ― I am reading over all the last days of dearest Ann’s life: ― oh! sadness never to cease here!

Dinner: & evening pleasant. Lucy F.’s good sense makes all things straight & agreable. The boys were delighted with some “Nonsenses” ― & sang a little.

Bed ― not sleep ― at 11.

[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]

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Saturday, 30 March 1861

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Cold, showery.

Slept ill. ― A frightful weariness seems to weigh me down ― [apart from] ― this inside stoppage, wh. continues ― but with less pain ― & to day I do not so much think of a rupture, as a strain, bringing in partial stoppage.

Wrote & dawdled. O bitter weariness & void!

In the afternoon I walked with Lucy F. to Pittville, & by the college ― from 2 to 4. Mrs. F. is always so quiet & so sensible that her company exactly suit me just now. What she tells me of D. & E. Fowler, & of Annie, is “far from” pleasant. Later I went to the Chemists & got some medicine: ― perhaps the having done so made me feel somewhat better. Dinner: playing & singing ― & a very pleasant evening.

[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]

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Friday, 29 March 1861

Cold. Slept pretty well. ―

Fine ― showery. ―

Wrote some letters.

After Lunch, F. & R.F. & H.T.F. walked with me up Peeklington? Hill. Very remarkably beautiful view of Cheltenham & Gloucester.

Piuttosto ((Rather.)) bored by F. the boys are well enough. But all mean well. ―― Myelf, very unwell, inside all wrong.

Dined at 6. ˇ[Afternoon &] Evening very fine. Evening slow: ―

[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]

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Thursday, 28 March 1861

Fine all though.

I left the good Phipps Hornbys at 10 ― a car to Petersfield. Rail to Guildford by 12. Wait till 1.30 ― rail to Reading at 2.30. Wait there till 3. Cheltenham by 6.40.

The Francillons are very kind: but I was worn out & sad.

Whether my “dentro” is injured or not I cannot decide ― but something is wrong & I must have advice.

Weather cold.

[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]

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Wednesday, 27 March 1861

The morning was fine ― but it soon began to rain, & rained all day. ― So that, after a little walk in the rookery avenues, we did not go out. But I sate talking with the Adml.Maria & Lucy. Jamie is to come ˇ[to day]. ((A longer sentence I cannot read has been covered.)) Τὰ σκυλιὰ ειναῖ ὀλίγον ενόκλητα, ὲδὦ. ((Nina is not sure about this, which seems to mean: “Dogs somewhat sit on their hind legs here.”)) ―

Διά ἐμὲ ― ἒχασα πάσης σωτηρίας λιμένα. ((As for me ― I lost the harbour of all salvation (NB).)) ―

Dinner ― & singing afterwards.

Sadness & misery.

At 10.30 P.M. Jamie came ― & we sate till 12 talking.

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There was a letter also from Γεώριγος Κοκάλι ―: he had but heard then of Ann’s death.

[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]

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Tuesday, 26 March 1861

Dull gray damp no sun.

Wrote till 12, & walked with the dear old Adml.

After lunch, walked alone towards Idsworth & over the down, “with weary steps.” played with lambs: came over the down.

A cold dark sadness. ― Now then I really know that Ann is gone: ― but this grows stranger & stranger , & I think it absurd for one to be left here.

Unwell also, & uneasy inside.

Dinner: the Adml. anxious about James, who has not come ― tho’ Friday was fixed by him.

[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]

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Monday, 25 March 1861

Dull ― mizzly day.

Left Yarmouth at 9. Lymington, Brocklehurst, Southampton, Bishopswaltham, Portsmouth. Then to Chichester, & saw the ruined Cathedral. Back to Emsworth, & bad fly & bad horse to L. Green.

The Adml., Maria & Lucy.

Quiet evening & rest.

[Transcribed by Marco Graziosi from Houghton Library, Harvard University, MS Eng. 797.3.]

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